10.09.06
14/17..18
Assalam Alaikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakatuhu
Today is October 9th, 2006. Asma would have been 14 today according to the Gregorian Calendar, not that we celebrate birthdays. She was born on a Friday, I think in the morning hours. Though I cannot be sure since I do not even know the time of day I was born. She would have been 14 today and I would still be 17. For a few months we would only be three years apart if you look at the numbers. And then inshaAllaah this December I will be 18. But I won’t be able to compare ages with my sister any longer.
 This day, this month last year, Asma would have been 13. But she never reached her 13th ‘birthday.’ She left this dunya only four months after she turned 12 (again, according to the Gregorian Calendar). Funny thing is, she never wanted to become a teenager. She would say to me, “Aysha, I’m scared of being 13.” And I knew where she was coming from because I felt the same way when I was her age. My thoughts were that I was growing up too quickly and I wanted to be Daddy’s little girl forever. I didn’t want to become like these nasty teenagers that we so often see on television. I don’t know if these were the same reasons Asma had, but I knew how she felt. SubhanAllaah, Asma never had to deal with being a teenager, with growing up. Indeed, it is true that Allaah works in mysterious ways. Mysterious to us, that is.
While Asma was sick, I was looking forward to her becoming 14 and me 18. Or 15/19, 16/20. They are such perfect pairs in my opinion. I was looking forward to the day when I would be able to talk to her about anything and everything. I would tell Asma a lot of thing about my life, but not everything because I just thought she was too young at the time.
 But Alhumdulillah ‘ala kulli hal. I wanted to continue this post, but I can’t. InshaAllaah later…
 On a final note, Asma was born on Friday, October 9, 1992 and passed away Friday, February 11th, 2005.
