12.03.09
Number of things..
Assalam Alaikum Wa Rahmatullah
The first order of business (heh) is to inform you all of the start of an amazing organization: Global Voice for Justice and Human Rights. Here is a link to the forums: http://voiceforjustice.usersboard.com/login.forum?connexion and here is a link to the FB group: http://www.facebook.com/#/group.php?gid=203803809531&ref=ts . They recently sent 60 letters to 140 prisoners (60 letters to each prisoner), mashaAllaah!
K, now that that’s settled, I’d selfishly like to request that you make du3aa that Allaah guides me to, keeps me on, and allows me to die for the Straight Path and that He makes me successful in this dunya and in the akhira. jazakumAllaahu khairan.
Ok, now I just want to take the opportunity to say that if there is anyone who respects me for whatever reason besides for me being a Muslim, you should reconsider that respect. Alhamdulillah I’m a Muslim and I know I have respect given for being one, but it shouldn’t really go further than that. Wallaahi, I am a horrible Muslim…and when I have told some people that, they tried to comfort me by saying I’m not such a bad Muslim, but you don’t know my heart, do you? You don’t know my sins, do you? I just hope that Allaah forgives me for my sins, mistakes, shortcomings and hides them from the world so we (my Rabb and I) can have a private conversation on Youm al Qiyamah after which He will pardon me (inshaAllaah).
But anyways, one of the salaf (Muhammad ibn Wasee’) said, “If sins had an odor, no one would be able to sit with me.” He was from one of the generations the Prophet sal Allaahu ‘alayhi wa sallam praised. How horrible could his sins be compared to mine? If sins truly had an odor….I’d be worse than a 1000 acre field of pure garbage =( . And that’s being light on myself. Allaahul Musta’an.
Meh…I just hate that people might think that because of my outward appearance or some words, I’m a good Muslim. Sometimes, just because of this, I feel like changing those two things so that people aren’t being deceived. Obviously that’s from Shaytaan. It’s only going to harm me if I incur more sins upon myself and that’s just the wrong mentality. I SHOULD be thinking that I should change my inner self to complement my outward appearance. Ahhh Allaahul Musta’an. *sigh*
Assalam Alaikum Wa Rahmatullah
